It happens that when too much time has passed I must seek out water. I must go to its side. It’s not a choice really it’s some sort of deep calling that I’ve felt since as long as I can remember. The familiar desire to seek out a body of water often comes in the event of its prolonged absence. For me,the intrinsic reflective nature of water is not exclusive to the nature of light, but also to the mind. And so knowing this I draw near to its side to reflect.
Today my day began as a quest for new clothing, new shoes, merchandise, things of comfort. Yet, when I departed the bus that took me to the outlet shopping center I did not walk in, but rather instead, walked past its doors and far beyond its location. Some ways down the road the highway bends and curves to meet the entrance of a park; Odo park.
Inside the park itself, the island nature of the land is revealed where water meets a beach on each of its borders. When finally I came to the waterside, I had also come to witnessed scenes of humanity: An old man waist deep in water, fishing in the shallows for something I had never eaten before; a young father and his child wandering along the surf looking for shells; and further along in the distance, I could hear the cheerful cries of a child proclaiming victory, having found a deeply buried shell within the sand; behind the wall where I sat gazing at the light upon the water’s surface, an older father was throwing pine cones at his son, overcome with laughter on the soft ground below them.
And all the while, amidst the collective experiences of humanity, the waves lapped gently at the beach’s side.
I used to think maybe I was weird, that maybe this secret beckoning to water was something that wasn’t normal. In my own sort of strange fantasy, I sometimes imagine that perhaps I was a fish at one point before I was me. But I know the answer is much more simple than that, for the water is where life gathers. And knowing this single truth, what mystery is left in finding myself here?
I had come to witness life, I had come to express my life, I had come to live.